I’ve always been a fierce guardian of my privacy. Keeping people at arms length was my full-time job. I am recovering from being a very anxious individual and I suffered from “imposter syndrome” for a long time. I didn’t want anyone in my business because I felt like I couldn’t survive the theoretical catastrophic consequences of people actually knowing me. I mean, they could find out I’m not perfect! What if they don’t get my Star Wars jokes? What if they judge me? It was exhausting to expend so much energy on the “what if it all goes bad?” scenarios.
But, in this past year I’ve learned a lot about myself. And I’ve decided that there is pretty much an equal chance that things can go well as there is a chance that things could go bad, but my perception is what “tips the balance” in one direction or the other. I’ve had a good life, despite all its challenges, I can look back and see that I’ve always been at the right place at the right time. I’ve always come out on top…eventually.
So I am choosing to expand my life’s transparency and build a tribe of folks who get to experience all the highs and lows with me. I’m gonna let some secrets out, and instead of only wondering how it could all go wrong, I’m going to focus on how it will all go right. I’m learning to be joyfully detached from outcome, because the root of my Joy is in Source, and God is unchanging. I boldly undertake the process of examining and living my life, honoring that it is always going to be all good, even when it seems like it isn’t.
I admit I am a work in progress, and so is this blog. I haven’t written for public consumption in over a decade, so this is a practice project. Sometimes the topics will be super nerdy (are you as excited about Black Panther as I am?!?) Sometimes they may be political (uh….so Black Panther is SUPER Black and I’m here for it!) Sometimes posts may be existential (we are all made of stars…) Or topics may be whatever happens to tickle my fancy. This blog is all about me, with all my weird complexities. Are you ready!?! Here are the chronicles of my woke and Blerdy life. Enjoy the ride, I know I will!!